Accompaniment

Why is it that when something that I look forward to is accompanied by something bad and unfortunate?

That’s my status message I wrote just a few short seconds ago [on Facebook]. And seriously, I really do mean it…

I’m the type of guy who always seem to dream big, the one who fantasize that everything is in his favor yet unaware that this dream will be jinxed by uncontrollable forces, forces that keeps me TOO grounded.

When something bad happens, it makes me feel: miserable, weak, helpless.

Sometimes I question why I even bother on looking forward into something that would end up in disaster, something that would prevent me from being satisfied or at least be happy for myself.

I’m not a bad person, but I admit that I have flaws.Sino namang nilalang dito sa mundo ang hindi? Why do I deserve these much pain, much hardship, such toil? It’s the same thing over and over again.

Big and small, these misfortune is here to stay and make the life a living hell for me, for better or for worse.

Oh well, hat’s life as you know it. You get some, you lose some.
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