In less than a 60 minutes, I’ll be hitting 19. For the past 12 months after turning legally 18 I must say that I experienced quite the thrill ride since the day I celebrate my 18th birthday earlier one Sunday at Powerplant Mall exactly a year ago.

I gained some, I lost some, regained some footing then losing quite the booty. I was finally allowed to drink alcoholic beverages legally although I still don’t drink. Despite the relative freedom I gained, I also had to lose something valuable in order to stay grounded, like the events of August 14, 2009 wherein I lost expensive pieces of material wealth worth thousands because of my ignorance.

As I turn a year older doesn’t necessarily equate that I’m getting a year wiser. There is still a lot of things for me to learn and there are a lot of things that I want to achieve in life.I still want to explore the vast horizons of my surroundings, realize the childhood dreams I never thought was possible until now, and prove to myself the things that I can do, to help ease my cravings for satisfaction.

I never desire perfection but I know when enough is enough. There is a lot of room for me to improve not in terms of skills and talents but also my personality. I know that I could do better than being gullible and all that. I know that I cannot give in to my apprehensions or else I won’t be able to grow in wisdom and maturity. I don’t want to think ill of myself nor do I want to be sensitive of how people think of me.

Becoming a 19-year old is a turning point in my life, although I think every year is a turning point for me anyway. It makes me look back and see how much I discover more of myself, how much of me is changed and how much of me didn’t.

I still have frustrations, being unable to put into reality of sharing this very special moment to others besides my family in a way that I want it to be. But the future doesn’t seem too dim for I know that sooner or later, it will happen (if only THEY will let it happen)!

My journey in life continues and for sure there will be bumps along the way. I trust that God will help me along the way.

To conclude the final hour of my 18th year in life, I want to greet myself a very happy birthday! 😀