The nightmare of virtual inanimosity returns to strike back at me for the nth time! I can’t believe the overwhelming trust given to me by my Profes1 classmates, most which I barely even know. I was voted ***gulp*** “president” of the “republic” to help lead my constituent towards a fair and better world.

     I have leadership issues, ranging back during frosh year. I still vividly remember Ferdie pointing at me, telling Sir Aldwin “Gepsych/Intecom” Sanchez that I’m the block president. I denied his allegation but the whole block agreed that I should lead the class. It came at the wrong time since for most of our first term in CSB, I was too pre-occupied with a lot of stuff, which made so much of a workaholic. Me being a busybody equates me being cranky and overly stressed out. Grrr….

      I wonder how I would fare this time, considering that I had foregone some excess weight in the past. I don’t know if I have the qualifications of a good leader, knowing I was much of a slave and a control-freak than a chief executive.

         The control-freak in me still lies within. Unfortunately, for a weekly three-hour class, I no longer foresee a recurring of past events which eventually reached its peak when I fatally created my own one-entry version of “The Vicious Circle” (if you’re a regular viewer of 90210, you would know).

Pray for me 🙁

      I’m not gonna mention her name but she shared something with me. I’m not gonna tell anything much but I’m merely gonna say my two cent’s worth of she’s going through.

     I completely understand her situation.  People close to her are oblivious to what she’s going through. She’s stressed out not because of her studies but to something else. Because of it, she’s doing something to cope with her complete distraught towards it. She herself confessed to me that she doing something to discontinue once and for all.

    Okay, that’s as far as I can go so here’s what’s on my mind:

      Mabuti na rin na inamin niya. Unang hakbang ito para sa kanyang pakikipagsapalaran patungo sa panunumbalik ng self-esteem niya. Ang masasabi ko lang, kahit anong problemang na pinapaharap sa kanya ng tadhana, wala siyang magagawa kungdi harapin ang mga iyon. Hindi niya dapat iwasan ang mga ito, maski takbuhan dahil susulpot at susulpot pa rin niyan.

        Hindi naman perpekto ang tao, walang taong ang may walang problema sa buhay. Lahat tayo ay may problema sa buhay. Bahagi ng pagiging tao ang pagkakaroon natin ng mga problema, at nasa atin ang kamay para bigyan ng kalutasanan ang mga tulad nito.

      Ang paraan niya para harapin ang problema ay hindi lutas sa problema. Mas lalo itong magpapalala sa sitwasyon niya. Ikasasama pa niya ito.

       Ang pagiging positibo tungo sa buhay niya at sa sarili niya ay talagang makakatulong. kailagan niyang palakasin ang kanyang lakas ng loob para labanan ang nagdadala sa kanya ng sobrang lungkot at depression.

     Hindi natin napipili ang mga taong gusto nating kapiling pero hindi ibig sabihin ay hindi natin sila pakikisamahan. Kailangan lang natin ma-adjust sa ugali nila, pero kailangan rin natin i-adjust ang sarili natin para na rin sa kanila. Hindi plastikan ang nais nating pakikipagtungo sa kanila pero respeto at tamang pag-iintindi ang susi sa mabuting samahan.

I wish her the best for her bold endeavors!

         Nakakatawa ‘tong nangyari sa’kin kanina lang, hehehe! PInayagan na ako ng prof ko na umalis na nag maaga matapos kong kumpletuhin ang mga plates ko sa kanya para sa Techdrw na ginaganap lang tuwing Wednesday mula ika-6 hanggang ika-9 n.g. Umalis na akong SDA, pasado alas otso ng gabi. Nung nasa may P. Ocampo na ako, may mga nakasabay ako na mga atleta ng school.

      Naglakad ako kasabay ng mga atletang iyon hanggang sa may kung ano ang nagpapatid sa paa ko. Dahil doon, biglang nawalan ako ng balanse sa aking katawan. Ilang beses akong pala-bagsak pero pinipilit kong balansihin ang bigat ng katawan ko. Hanggang sa aking tuluyan paghulog, ginamit ko lang ang kaliwang kamay ko para ma-break ang fall ko.

   Napahiya ako sa mga taong naka-saksi sa nangyari. Iyung mga nakasabay kong mga atleta, nagulat sila bigla, nauna na sa paglakad tapos mukhang napatawa sila sa nangyari sa’kin habang ang ibang mga tao, nakatingin lang sa’kin na parang “Huh? Anong nangyari diyan?”. Tawa na lang ako.

Turns out, napatid ako sa may sidewalk malapit sa driveway ng isang payparking place katabi ng Kenny Rogers, bago dumiretso patungong himpilan ng LRT-Vito Cruz. 😀

Fast Notes: 1)Surprised to see that a lot of people took great notice to the banner change. Wanna thank the 7 people (and counting) who viewed the page. :D, 2)Within three months or less, I’ll be compiling the pictures taken during the mini-fair and turn them into a possible slideshow movie. I already have some interesting soundtracks in mind which I wanna incorporate into the movie :D, 3)Advance congratulations to the newly-elected and soon-to-be inaugurated 44th president of the United States of America, Barack Obama. May the force be with (and also with you) :D.

       I have came up with this radical idea of using the magic of probability when dealing about long lines at the SDA lobby. Just this afternoon, I saw three long lines queing for the three available elevators out of the more than 5(?) elevators in SDA (They can’t be run at the same time).

    The first two lines were long and the elevators they were waiting for are somewhere between the 5th and 12th floors going up. The third line was long as well, but t’was shortened by the elevator which was already at the bottom floor. I chose to line up along the third one since the probability of getting in faster is greater than the other two lines whose elevators have yet to come down.

    More on that on a later entry, I wanna share to you this incident happened whule I was on my way up to the 11th floor inside the elevator. I was at the very back, enabling me to see people who are coming in and out from where I am now (I wanna say ‘elevator’ but it’s getting redundant in this paragraph).

    When the elevator tooked a stop at the 7th floor, I saw two familiar figures. One of them, a girl, was wearing a checkered red-and-black polo shirt with long sleeves that got tucked in. At first, I thought she was Alyssa. Another one, a girl too, possesses a short hairdo with her hair dyed on a different color, thinking initially that she’s Alex.

    I took another good look at the two and realized that it’s not them. Knowing Alyssa and Alex, I know Alyssa won’t dare wear black booths and that Alex doesn’t wear high heels and a long skirt unless mandated by law (go figure).

    Natawa na lang ako kasi mapagkakamalan mo talaga sila, lalo na ang Alyssa clone hehehe!